Written by cycleguy on June 20th, 2017

Like most people, I am not fond of trials. I’ve had my share of them recently and I can honestly say, I’m a little tired of them. I know…I know…mine are not nearly as bad as many. I try really hard to guard against feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in self-pity. Sometimes I feel like this back issue is kicking my you-know-what all over the place. The MRI showed a bulge and possibly 2 nerve impingements. I go to a neurosurgeon on Friday, the 30th, for a consultation. Amazing what a car at 60 mph can do! ‘Course I used to tell people I’m alive and walking.  2″ more and one of those might not be a reality.  Anyway…

I read this from New Morning Mercies last Saturday:

Through difficult relationships and circumstances, God works to expose your heart so you will seek the grace that can be found only in Him…The trials in our lives exist not because He has forgotten us, but because He remembers us and is changing us by His grace.

Admittedly, I’m glad He remembers me. 🙂 But honestly?  I sometimes wonder if He could show it another way. You know what I mean?  I don’t mean to sound disrespectful of God and the way He works. Just showing my humanness.  I won’t stop trusting Him, I won’t stop leaning on Him. I won’t stop relying on His grace. I’d just like my memories to be just a tad bit more on the lighter side.  🙂


13 Comments so far ↓

  1. Linda Stoll says:

    I hear exactly what you’re saying, Bill. I’m so sorry to hear this news. Our bodies certainly are fading away …

    He giveth more grace, doesn’t He.

    Trusting for some good news in the mix for you.

  2. Pam says:

    Ah yes, Bill, we all wish we could bi-pass the trials at least for a time. Praying for you!

  3. Lisa notes says:

    Yeah, there are days I’d like to cut a different deal with God. 🙂 But I’m trusting, too, that he knows WAY more than I do so I’ll stick with his plan. Praying for your back issues to ease up, Bill.

  4. Praying for you my brother!

  5. I so hear you, Bill! When I read this, I couldn’t help thinking about the trials Danny and I recently faced. Wow, how overwhelming! But God truly was with us through it all.

  6. Betty Draper says:

    Praying for you brother. It’s was interesting to me to realize I trusted my health until they found heart blockage. I still have to have a knee replacement and I wanted to wait till I was recovered a little bit but it may not wait. I don’t bike but I do swim and just got to go back to the pool recently so I will be off from any swimming after knee surgery. When I look at my future it sometimes depresses me because despite great medial care my body is getting more frail every day. So I try to not look to my future here on earth and look toward heaven. I lean heavily that with God’s help my inner man will shine more brightly as my outer man fades. It’s a huge transition to go from healthy and able to do what we love to and not able to do what we love. Maybe that is the issue with our heart, we love what we love more than Him. I know I have been going through a questioning time as I recover. So thanks for being honest and transparent Bill.

    • cycleguy says:

      I think Betty coming to grips with aging and the fact our bodies will betray us is part of the maturing process in life. No matter how many miles I ride, and how much I try to watch what I eat, etc, life is reality. I’m glad I have something better to look forward to.

  7. floyd says:

    I hear you and I feel you, Bill. So wish we could catch on and get wisdom the easy way…

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