Dubious

Written by cycleguy on November 7th, 2017

Some memories are, shall we say, dubious. My post today is in memory of one of those dubious anniversaries-ones that remind you of something you are not so fond of.

One year ago today this happened to me.  The date is today. The day is yesterday. So I guess it depends on how you look at anniversary’s as to how you will see this. Doesn’t matter though. It happened and it began a spiral downward in the health department but it also began a very, very slow process of spiritual awakening and renewal (which actually took on a more earnest effort in February.

I wanted to ride yesterday and today but the weather has not cooperated (nor has my life). I was busy from the time I got up to the time I laid my head on the pillow yesterday. Today, we host Dine with a Doc and then Jo and I are taking off for Sandusky, OH to visit her sister. Things are really improving there and we need to help her get a new washer/dryer (and be there for the delivery) and get her duplex ready for when she comes home.

I wanted to ride past the scene and stop for a moment of gratitude for God’s protection. I realize some will say, “Well, if God protected you why did He allow it to start with?” Fair question and all I can say is, “I don’t know. He could have but chose not to.” But I also don’t think He put His finger on the driver and said, “Hit him!” Some people are either just evil or distracted. I consider His protection because it could have been worse. He missed my spine by two inches. I shiver at what the two possibilities are with that. Yes, I just had surgery in July which was required due to a bone fragment laying on a nerve in my spine, but the reality is I could have been paralyzed with 2 more inches. So, in my case, I relish God’s protection.

The saga is ongoing. I suspect they will never find who did it. I am okay with that. He/she has to live with it. Will I ever be back to the way I was? No. Physically, I now have limitations. Mentally, I sometimes relive it and realize how close I came. Spiritually, it began a good process. It still has not been settled with the insurance company (and who knows when that will be? I refuse to get a lawyer.) So it is before me. Or is that behind me?

No matter how you look at it though, it is a dubious anniversary. One I’m grateful to be celebrating. And I can also say I love Jo more today than I ever have. She’s my “knight” in shining armor. I put her through the wringer this past year and she stood solid as a rock. Cried a bit. Okay…a lot. But she stood strong next to me. For that, I will always be grateful.

Jo’s sister does not have wifi so I may be out of the loop for the next couple of days. I’ll use my phone to approve comments but I despise using it to make comments. Please be patient. And thanks for your prayers.

 

11 Comments so far ↓

  1. Lisa notes says:

    It’s hard to believe it’s already been a year, but what a year it has been for you. Praying for you on this anniversary and thanking God that you are still with us despite all that happened.

  2. Betty Draper says:

    I hear you brother, it’s been almost a year since my heart surgery that was suppose to be knee surgery instead. So for a year my knee has got worst and worst till I am on a cane, use a wheelchair if the walk is very long. BUT, this Thursday, the 9th, I will get my knee replacement. pray I recovery well because I also need the other knee done…it’s tough when one has to live with limitations either by aging or accident. I too am so grateful for Ace, he is a great nurse and has the patience of Job…Enjoy your time away brother.

  3. Pam says:

    You have kept such a good attitude about this whole disaster, Bill. I know you have had your moments–you’ve shared them with us–but you have refused to let this keep you from cycling and that is an inspiration to us all. As for your Day of Un-service on Sunday, maybe more service was done within the group than you imagine. Perhaps, by breaking it up and asking people to contact those who were to be served, relationships were formed that otherwise wouldn’t have. We just never Know.

  4. Linda Stoll says:

    Gosh, is it really a year already? What you have weathered these past 12 months, friend.

    And what you’ve taught us all in the process.

    And how you and Jo are closer than ever before.

    Lemons out of lemonade …

  5. jeff says:

    Another “I fell of my bicycle story”. The gift that keeps giving.

    • cycleguy says:

      Not sure how you meant that jeff..as a dig or a good thing. We each have a story…made up of different parts of our lives. This is one of mine. I make no apologies for sharing it on the anniversary because it, and the one in February, changed my life.

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