Written by cycleguy on February 23rd, 2020

Every Sunday I go through it. I call it a hangover. I’ve never had the other kind.  Kind of hard to do that when you don’t take a drink to start with. 🙂

I had one yesterday. I went to the Y early (8:00) to work out and when I was done I had the hangover. It was the good kind. You know…the adrenaline is pumping and you feel like something good happened.  I even joked with someone who was just getting there about feeling good I was done. I had reached my limit physically for that workout and there was a settled feeling that came over me. Shower. Eat. Study. Nap. Oops where did that come in? 🙂

I’ve have one when my bike ride is finished. An a-a-a-a-a-h feeling.  A sense of accomplishment. An adrenaline rush from having spent myself. Shower. Eat. Work. Nap. Again, where did that come from?  🙂

I get one every Sunday. I expend myself emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Spiritually. Eat. (No shower needed). Study. Nap. Well, sometimes but not today.

I’m a bit melancholy right now. I’m not sad from any event. I’m not down from life. I expended a lot of spiritual energy this morning after preaching twice and I think I know what it is.

The subject matter. Heaven is fine to preach on. I’m not a fan of preaching on Hell. It isn’t because I pound the pulpit and scream and froth at the mouth. I don’t. But I’m melancholy because I have this sneaking suspicion there were some there today who needed to come to Christ but will keep putting it off.  It’s days like today that I wish I was like the Hulk when he grabbed Loki,  slammed him back and forth a few times, and then said, “Puny god.” Loki just whimpered. That was after Loki tried to tell the Hulk he was a god.

There are people I just want to grab and say, “What are you waiting for? Don’t you realize you are playing with your life, taking a risk that you really don’t want to gamble on?”

When I feel like this I can only imagine what God must be feeling after waiting and waiting.  The Bible says that God desires all men to repent and to come to a knowledge of the truth. His heart must break when time after time people reject Him.

I’m not concerned about my eternity. I know where I will be. I do get melancholy over others. May I never lose that fire for the lost. May I never lose that desire to see people come to Jesus. May I never lose that hunger to feel God’s pain.

I closed the sermon with this song. Hope you enjoy it.


9 Comments so far ↓

  1. Ryan S says:

    Powerful song…
    It is hard to understand what holds people back… perhaps they feel they need to “fix” a behavior before they can take that step… Perhaps it is a past that continues to haunt… Perhaps it is trust… Perhaps it is a lack of desire to change…

    Then I remember… what holds me back?
    What keeps me from being all in? What keeps me from moving forward like I think I should. Probably much of the same reasons.


    • cycleguy says:

      i look around and wonder what is holding people back. I know some of it is the seriousness of the call. But you do raise a good point. What holds me back?

  2. Beautiful song, Bill!
    Yes, I become sad, too, when I think of those people who deny they need God and Jesus. I pray they will come to their senses before it’s too late.

  3. Ed says:

    I’ve always loved a good fire and brimstone sermon, but I’ve also realized that in view of the events of today (or recent events anyways) people need a good sermon on hope rather than damnation.

  4. floyd says:

    That’s the sign of a true man of God carrying His heart within.

    I forget who it was that said, “A pastor should never be able to preach on hell without tears in their eyes.”

  5. Betty Draper says:

    The lost should break our heart because came for one reason, the lost. Love the song.